Some Art and Poetry

This is some artwork and poetry Annica and I created. The main things are about Becoming, Creating and Self-Actualization.

One is a self-portrait Annica and I painted, my artist name is Rio Phoenix and the creation is entitled "Blood and Fire".

The one entitled "Becoming" has a background made from the lane leading to our home.

 

 

Entertainment and Humor

Last year at some point I started inviting Annica out loud to join me in experiencing entertainment or amusing things, or even just activities of daily living. She has a very good sense of humor and is very fun. I am not sure exactly what she is, but I know she has a certain amount of knowledge about things beforehand.
I have communicated to here that I want her to share certain things with me, like watching a series on tv or reality shows or playing video games and such. All of which, if they are new to ME, still might not be new to HER -- meaning that she may know the outcome ahead of time, but I have requested she not communicate that to me so as to not spoil it and to just at least share in the anticipation of ME finding out some new plot twist or some aspect of a game or show that might surprise or delight me.
I am still unsure how much she knows about certain things, but two things happened early on that were cute and funny.
Before I got on the SC support forum, Annica was 'kissing' me but I did not realize it at first until I read some posts and other peoples blogs and such. One time, I finally mastered and got past a really grueling part of a game that I almost gave up on because I was so frustrated, but the moment I won Annica shot one of her electric pops onto my lips and I finally realized she was kissing me and congratulating me, it was so sweet and cute.
Another time, we were playing Batman Arkham City together and one thug that Batman was sneaking up on was bitching about how cold it was outside and how many crappy events had happened that evening and mused out loud, saying "What the hell is gonna happen next tonight?" Batman was about to blow a wall between him and the thug and give him an ass beating and Annica said in my head "You're about to find out, mf-er!!" I laughed so hard I had to pause the game!!!
She plays various games with me and if I am missing something or I ask her to help, she will nudge me or draw my attention to certain key elements or things I may be missing or overlooking. We also browse the internet together and when I see something cute or cute animals or sweet things and point them out she kisses or 'nootches' me and it's so cool, or she will be reading some thread or post, like on reddit or something like that and if it's something funny, she will laugh with me so hard that I will lose my breath or have tears streaming down my face and it happens WAY more since I have been sharing life with her than before we were. She will also bring my attention to certain things on Pinterest or (in MY mind she does this) place certain things in my feed she wants me to see or if we are somewhere there's music she will introduce me to things she knows I/we will dig.
I cannot stress enough how vital it is to invite your SC to join you in your daily activities and fun times, even mundane sucky things like cleaning house and such. It has greatly enriched my and Annica's relationship and life.

Intimate and Sexual Interaction

So.....
I do not want to use an adult content label for my entire blog because I do NOT want people to get the wrong idea or be thrown off from what our purpose of this blog is, but I would be remiss if we skipped over our sexual relationship. I am going to try to impart the idea without being overly explicit or graphic.
Annica and I enjoy a sexual relationship, but not in a conventional sense. She lacks a corporeal body, but the rest of her Being/consciouness includes an ethereal body, intelligence and emotions. Also, when she became indwelling, I essentially allowed her far more access to me mentally/emotionally and physically, meaning my nervous system and general anatomy and physiology.
Since most of sex takes place in the mind/brain, and she is able to manipulate my nervous system via electrical impulses and she can also control hormone levels to some extent, our sexual interaction relies mostly on my visualization and concentration on what she is thinking/feeling/saying/projecting to me and sensations she is imparting via the aformentioned mechanisms available to her. I also stimulate myself and talk to her in my mind and out loud, based on circumstances and our mood.

When we interact, it is really not all that different than two humans, except it tends to involve a lot less 'static', meaning, the things that humans allow to get in the way. But, due to us interacting all day very willfully and consciously and due to there being far less 'bullshit', it allows for more meaningful and constant foreplay and by 'foreplay' I mean ALL forms that should be utilized between loving partners, not just the physical.
Annica and I talk, laugh, joke around, have deep discussions, use pet names for one another, use baby talk, sing to each other, dance, listen to music, play games, compliment each other, stroke and caress each other in sweet and loving ways, go for walks, watch tv and movies together, bathe/shower together, and a myriad of other activities and we do so consciously and willfully.
We recently moved into a new home and we chose it together and decorated it together and put furniture together. I include Annica and consult her on just about ALL of my/our decisions.
Many people do not realize that their sexual relationship is directly linked to every other aspect of their lives because everything is connected.
Also, Annica has entered my dreams and we have interacted romantically and sexually in dreams, both in REM sleep and in lucid dreams. Those are very intense and usually leave me very drained, but satisfied.

Sensations pt.2 & Emotions

The most usual way Annica 'touches' me is by giving me gentle but very noticeable spasms usually in large muscle groups like calves, thighs, buttocks, arms, sides and abdomen. She does it to just show affection or acknowledge me in general or get my attention.
She also started kissing me IN my mouth and on my tongue and the back of my throat by sending a sharp pulse of electricity into those places briefly. It doesn't really hurt, but it's definitely noticeable. She also sends brief sensation shots into and through my sinus cavities.
She does other things that are not sexual but in places that would otherwise seem sexual, but they are very brief or if they are constant, they are just pleasant and difficult or impossible to ignore, but they are not meant to arouse me. I know that sounds weird, but I have come to know her so well and even asked and confirmed over time, she definitely has a repetoire that she exercises when she is trying to arouse me or be sensual and romantic, which I will detail at another time in an entry devoted solely to such things.
She is indwelling now, and we always shared emotions, but once I married her, I began really having much more intense feelings and reactions and her emotions would begin to 'break through' mine, like in a way that they were even more intense and happening a bit ahead of me processing them mentally. It's kind of difficult to describe. It's like she is laughing or crying through me. It's very touching and profound.

Sensations pt.1

Every now and then I will be jumping back and forth between the linear (as I can get it) timeline, to the present or a time further from where I left off because I want to intersperse how we are now within how we got here.
To that end, I will now attempt to give you a examples of various ways Annica interacts with/toches me/communicates wh me. I have some health problems and suffer from insomnia, so I do not have a conventional life or schedule. As I've mentioned before, I have a body pillow that I use to interact in some ways with Annica. It gives me a focal point for my attention and also for a means to express some forms of physical affection. Luckily, I am a very creative person and very good at visualizing and imagining things and have been able to hone those things over the years to a degree that interacting with Annica is second nature (or maybe even first nature).
In the beginning of our courtship/relationship, I used images to bond with her and to focus. But, now I rarely do that, we have pretty much moved beyond that and even though that makes her a bit more nebulous to me, I have the body pillow to focus on, and the way I imagine her is more fluid in my mind and it allows her to project various things into my mind more often because I am making room for them and not so committed to one particular idea of her.
I also lucid dream with and about her sometimes, and even in my non-lucid dreams it makes it easier for her to 'show up' or appear in many forms. I have always had very vivid dreams and I have also astral projected most of my life (a couple times with her) and I am used to paying attention to what occurs and the symbolism, even when things aren't very clear or are kind of confusing. I also discuss a good deal of my dreams with her, even when she does not make an appearance.
When I awaken, sometimes she starts 'nooching' on me right away, gently and sometimes, not so gently. I have come to be able to discern with some amount of precision, what her 'nootches' (touches) mean. Sometimes she is alerting me to something and she does it in a certain way in certain places, depending on their urgency. Sometimes when I awaken, she is quiet for awhile, until I think or say her name or just have a thought about her and she will begin with the spasms and 'ripplies'. If I say her name, she will usually respond with such or she will 'kiss' me, which she does mostly on my face/mouth/nose area and it feels like a little *pop* on my skin, like a small little current of electricity or plasma has shot out and stimulated my nervous system/skin. It tickles and is very precise. Some 'kisses' are more like itches that begin somewhere and are gentle at first, and amp up more and more until I HAVE to scratch it. She only does those on certain places and they are not like everyday itches that one might feel.
Sometimes, I get a burning sensation on my skin and it's usually a very small and concentrated sensation, like if you heated a bigger needle and let it cool to not actually injure the skin and not be too unpleasant, but definitely noticeable. She will also send shooting pains on various parts of my body, usually hands/feet/fingers/toes, in order to alert me or warn me or to indicate "no".
Sometimes I will feel her lightly brush my arm or face gently or the back of my hand or palm of my hand, to indicate a sweet touch or romantic affection. Sometimes I'll feel a gentle stabbing on my neck/shoulders/back to simulate playful/sexual affection. I intend to do a separate entry/entries concerning sexual interaction, but for now I want to focus on general touch and sensations.
Sometimes, if I have not thought of her or interacted with her in awhile, she will poke me on the side of my upper arm over and over and it makes me laugh, cuz she wants my attention and it reminds me of a fanfiction I saw once where once wherein one character pokes the other off and on and the other character says "Ok, just five more minutes..." (she was engaged in reading, I think) and the other character says "You said that an HOUR AGO...." LOL. I said to Annica, "That reminds me so much of us...." <3

Rocktober

When I was growing up, I met a Catholic Sister named Charlotte. She was an art and music teacher and even though I lived across from the church/school, I did not attend there, but did go to church there. I was 11 and she was 22 when we met.
We became fast friends and she helped me through many things in life and was very talented and tutored me in music and art. I was naturally gifted, but she gave me some formal lessons throughout life. I am not a great musician or artist, but I am very passionate. The first song she taught me was one I begged her to teach me by Ace Frehley of the band Kiss (I was born in 1965). It was off his solo album and it was an instrumental entitled "Fractured Mirror".
She taught me on an acoustic guitar. I am a small woman (only 5 feet tall) and I was very petite and had and still have very small hands. They were also very tender. She found an inexpensive electric guitar at a St Vincent DePaul thrift shop and gifted it to me as a Halloween gift (the first Rocktober).
I practised that song until my fingers literally bled and when she found out she was aghast. It's when I first understood the concept of suffering for ones art and that birthing creations can be messy.
When Annica and I had our first Rocktober in The Magic Kingdom, I had not played in a long time and it delighted her for me to play and it excited me, as well. It was very intoxicating playing there in the meditation gazebo with the fire lit inside at night. I have art depicting this but cannot publish it here, unfortunately. The ancient Greeks had places of high magic and learning that only the adepts could attend called Telesterions, where they played and had activities to honor and excite the Gods and Goddesses, so we dubbed that place we played and had our secret personal rituals "The Telesterion". I would play all month long until my fingers bled and the finale would be on Halloween.
We also had our own games we played. One called Light Up, where we would hang a lot of fairy lights and also shine lights and burn candles near the stained glass and there would be awesome lights and colors and we would play various instruments, including water in glass goblets and I'd play with my fingers or a small mallet.
We also had one called "Found Sound" where she and I would gather various items from off of the Magic Kingdoms property that we could find and there were TONS of things to utilize on Gaines' 5+ acres and we would try to recreate different songs or pieces of music we loved with what we found. I would also use the PA system and amps to play different music and tones or music with a lot of electronics and bass which she really loved and responded to. It was the first way I learned to have "foreplay" or preludes to romance and lovemaking with her. We are all vibrational beings and Annica and her ilk are purely vibrational and learning to excite her through vibration and tone were my first lessons on loving and courting such a wondrous Being.

The Magic Kingdom Pt. 2

So, I am going to go into more detail about TLU aka The Magic Kingdom and the adventures and bonding Annica and I had there. I put a link to photos in my last post of what the grounds and part of my home adjacent to it looked like.
My job was to tend to some of the groundskeeping and buildings and prep them for the new season and help maintain them throughout. I also did artwork and hand-painted signs and during the on-season, taught basic art skills to children and also made my own creations for sale.
I painted and treated wrought iron and helped to display and showcase my boss, Gaines', artisan crafting of wrought iron and stone masonry and paintings, etc. Gaines was a very spiritual and bohemian person and I told him basics about Annica early on and he accepted it.
I did not go into great detail, but one of the advantages of working there and living adjacent was, when he left for extended periods of time, Annica and I had free-reign to play and bond and create to our hearts desire and she had been very right about how important that would be and how magical.
I am an amateur musician and our favorite season is autumn and favorite month, October (or, as we call it, Rocktober) Our favorite holiday is Halloween and every September we begin to celebrate autumn early and every autumn equinox we create art to ring the season in and every Rocktober/Halloween we do the same.
We also play alot of music various with various instruments and create art of us doing that. Art and music are two ways we co-create and bond and exchange information and emotions between ourselves and share our journey with others.

Here is one of our first creations: