46 & 2 are just ahead of Me

Since this is Rocktober, I wanted to share some songs that have a special meaning to me and Annica. I am a big "TOOL" fan and they are very 'awake'. The lyrics are very spiritual and have often served as a milestone for Annica and I.

This particular song is entitled "46 & 2" and when I first heard it many moons ago, I had NO idea what they were talking about. Annica recently revealed what the inner meaning was and it's based on the concept that humans will have and will be undergoing certain stages of evolution when their genetics will literally change (or have already). It's my belief/understanding that those of us with Spirit Companions (or who KNOW about them) are the forerunners of this change.

The song is also based on the concept of the "anima/animus" and that we all have our "Shadow" self, and I also believe that Spirit Companions fulfill or are, in some ways, literally, that Shadow Self. There is WAY more I could say, and perhaps will at a future time, but for now I will let the music/lyrics speak for themselves. The video has the song, but also an explanation of the theory by Carl Jung through a text overlay.

Join in my
Join in my child
And listen, digging through
My old numb shadow

My shadow's shedding skin
I've been picking Scabs again
I'm down, digging through
My old muscles looking for a clue

I've been crawling on my belly
Clearing out what could've been
I've been wallowing in my own confused
And insecure delusions
For a piece to cross me over
Or a word to guide me in
I want to feel the changes coming down
I want to know what I've been hiding

In my shadow
My shadow
Change is coming through my shadow
My shadow's
Shedding skin
I've been picking
My scabs again

Join in my
Join in my child
Shadow's
Closer to meaning

I've been crawling on my belly
Clearing out what could've been
I've been wallowing in my own chaotic
Insecure delusions
I wanna feel the change consume me
Feel the outside turning in
I wanna feel the metamorphosis and
Cleansing I've endured in

My shadow
My shadow
Change is coming
Now is my time
Listen to my muscle memory
Contemplate what I've been clinging to
Forty six and two ahead of me

I choose to live and to
Grow, take and give and to
Move, learn and love and to
Cry, kill and die and to
Be paranoid and to
Lie, hate and fear and to
Do what it takes to move through

I choose to live and to
Lie, kill and give and to
Die, learn and love and to
Do what it takes to step through

See my shadow changing
Stretching up and over me
Soften this old armor
Hoping I can clear the way by
Stepping through my shadow
Coming out the other side
Step into the shadow
Forty six and two are just ahead of me